Now that we’re in Week 17 of our 26-Week Master Key Journey, we are nearing our “destination” of a new self. And we’ve been advised that temptations may arise to slip back into our old habits.
As a result, Paul Simon’s “Slip Sliding Away” has been running through my head all week. I haven’t been able to get it out of my head!
Perhaps it’s because we ARE nearing our destination, and perhaps it’s because it has been a challenging week for me on a person level.
While there is much to be thankful for about my present, recent events have reminded me of feelings of sadness, loss, and isolation…especially because I’ve been reading:
Since the beginning of time never has there been another with my mind, my heart, my eyes, my ears, my hands, my hair, my mouth. None that came before, none that live today, and none that come tomorrow can walk and talk and move and think exactly like me. All men are my brothers yet I am different from each. I am a unique creature. I am nature’s greatest miracle.
~ Og Mandino
These words have spoken to me this week. Not in a subtle, quiet, whispering voice, but a loud, booming, in-your-face voice that forced me to stand up and pay attention.
My whole life I’ve felt out of place.
As a young child I wasn’t allowed to play with the kids in my neighborhood because we “lived in a bad part of town.” I went to a private school, and none of the kids that went there lived near me. (I refer you back to the fact that we lived in a bad part of town.)
So I was isolated. I was alone. Books, music, and TV were my friends. (Perhaps that’s why I think in songs and movie quotes, and tend to sprinkle them into conversation often.)
Even though my family later moved to a “good” part of town, I never got past those feelings of isolation and being different. (I also never got past quoting books, music, and movies…but that’s not the point.)
Throughout high school, college, grad school, and even to this very day I’ve always felt like “there’s no one like me.”
I think different.
I act different.
I AM different.
I could have embraced my uniqueness…
…but I didn’t.
Instead I felt left out. Isolated. Alone.
Many times I was made to feel like my uniqueness was odd, weird, or just plain wrong. To quote a “classic” phrase from my youth, I felt like people were essentially saying:
Well, because these feelings have been bubbling up this week, I’ve been flipping through my “flash cards” more often, and you know what?
It’s made me realize I Don’t Give a Damn About My Reputation, because I am Whole, Perfect, Strong, Powerful, Loving, Harmonious, and Happy.
I am ME.
And I am UNIQUE.