Week 6 – Sliding Backward: Serenity vs Love

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file00016079529On the path to growth, there are many steps we take.  Some are baby steps that we may take for granted because they are easy.  (And if it’s easy, it can’t possibly be propelling us toward growth, right?)

Other steps are steep and slippery.  These are the steps we’re hesitant to take, because they take us outside our comfort zone.  We tread lightly, for fear that we may get hurt.

I experienced some of those slippery steps of growth this week.

With everything going on in my life, I reached a breaking point and my stress level was at an all-time high.  Selling a house is stressful.  Being involved in the selling of TWO houses is exponentially more stressful.  Preparing to buy a house is stressful.

Now add a frantic call from my Realtor, who let me know there was a BIG roof leak — during the home inspection for the contract on my house, for a leak that JUST got repaired last week…

and…

KABOOM!

weee 300ppiI slide into old habits.  And I don’t mean I “took two steps forward and one step back.”

Oh, no!  I got on the BIG slide!

You know the one…the slide where you spiral out of control at 100 mph until you hit the wall at the bottom like a ton of bricks.

Yep.  That’s me!  WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My kitchen ceiling is sagging.  Water is rapidly dripping onto my flooded floors.  My chairs are ruined.

My head is spinning.  Smoke is coming out of my ears.  My eyes are popping out of my head.  Yep.  I hit the wall, all right!

I felt like a character in the Seinfeld episode where everyone yells:

“Serenity Now!”

Ah, yes…SERENITY NOW!

Such a far cry from what we’re learning from Og right now…

I Will Greet This Day With Love In My Heart.

How can I possibly greet this day with love in my heart???

What if this roof leak kills the sale?

How much is this fiasco going to cost me?

Financially?

Emotionally?

What will I do if the buyer backs out?

Serenity Now!

I’m making myself crazy over this, and I accelerate on my path down the slide…

My old habits are giving me a nice, comfy landing space for my emotions.  Only this time, after hitting the wall and landing with a giant SPLAT!, I realize that this place I know oh-so-well doesn’t feel so good.  It feels different.  It doesn’t feel like “home.”

I Will Greet This Day With Love In My Heart.

Now, I can’t say I feel completely at ease with this statement, either…yet.  (I’m hopeful!)

I kept repeating this phrase to myself (sprinkled with a few Serenity Nows for good measure), and it seemed to help give me the courage to pick myself up, dust myself off, and continue on throughout the day.

To my surprise and delight, later that day my boyfriend told me how well I handled the situation.  WOW.  Really?  I guess I AM changing…and others are taking notice.  That’s a really good feeling.

And do you know what else is a really good feeling?

The leak is fixed, and the buyer is still on board.

Ah…now THIS is serenity!

I Will Greet This Day With Love In My Heart.

After all, I have MANY reasons to love the day!!!

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16 thoughts on “Week 6 – Sliding Backward: Serenity vs Love

  1. Congrats Stacy, I’m glad everything is going to work out and you handled it well after all…Good Job…Here’s wishing you Peace Love and Happiness in your journey and in your new home.

  2. What an amazing story of you greeting the day with love in your heart. It DOES sound like serenity! =) I enjoyed reading your hones account here

  3. Hi Stacy, I am glad that everything works out at the end. I guess greeting each day with “love in [our] hearts” is powerful.
    -Janet

  4. I can relate Stacy. Being a realtor for several years I have gone through some of those things. It’s not easy and it’s not fun, but I congratulate you on keeping your composer even if you don’t feel like you did. Love is a powerful thing 😉

  5. Wow Stacy.. that is quite the week. I understand letting the old blueprint in at time and I have done it as well. The great thing is you keep working at improving and obviously you are as the people around you are seeing the change.

    Have a blessed day!

    1. You’re right, Scott…I guess it’s inevitable that we let the old blueprint peek through the new one…it’s all about forward progress, right? I love getting the confirmation from others that THEY see the change…it’s quite motivating!

  6. Great Stacy, things are starting to materialize, it feels great to read your post thanks.
    I too had some bad times last week…

  7. What a good feeling when others notice a difference in how we handle life’s struggles. Such an encouraging post, Stacy. Thank you!

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